I need you.
I surrender.
These words have been the first to go through my head upon
waking each morning the past few weeks. Not because I am just that holy, but
because I am just that desperate. I am painfully aware that I have no control
over anything. If I make a plan, it is guaranteed to change. Most of the
familiar will be fading away over the next few weeks – the house I come home
to, the “stuff” that makes this house a home, the car I drive, the people I see
regularly.
I’m caught somewhere between yesterday and tomorrow with
very few certainties. The people in my daily life have a lot of questions. The
answer to most of these is “I don’t know.” I find a small bit of sinister joy
when others experience frustration over this … welcome to my world.
Today is where God has me, and today is always the best
place to be. I am confident that the job ahead is more challenging than I can
imagine. I am also confident that through desperate need and through surrender,
I will find and experience God in ways I never even imagined before.
And my prayer is that some young teenage girls in Ghana will
experience the same.
I like this post. Thanks for challenging me to find joy in the journey of "I don't know!" I love you! Keep on, my friend.
ReplyDeleteYou are all too familiar with the "I don't know" answer, aren't you. Thanks for the encouragement Merritt!
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